Adrienne Rich — For Julia in Nebraska

Here on the divide between the Republican and the Little Blue lived some of the most courageous people of the frontier. Their fortunes and their loves live again in the writings of Willa Cather, daughter of the plains and interpreter of man’s growth in these fields and in the valleys beyond. On this beautiful, ever-changing land, man fought to establish a home. In her vision of the plow against the sun, symbol of the beauty and importance of work, Willa Cather caught the eternal blending of earth and sky. . . . In the Midwest of Willa Cather the railroad looks like a braid of hair a grandmother’s strong hands plaited straight down a grand-daughter’s back. Out there last autumn the streets dreamed copper-lustre, the fields of winter wheat whispered long snows yet to fall we were talking of matrices and now it’s spring again already. This stormy Sunday lashed with rain I call you in Nebraska hear you’re planting your garden sanding and oiling a burl of wood hear in your voice the intention to survive the long war between mind and body and we make a promise to talk this year, about growing older and I think: we’re making a pledge. Though not much in books of ritual is useful between women we still can make vows together long distance, in electrical code: Today you were promising me to live, and I took your word, Julia, as if it were my own: we’ll live to grow old and talk about it too. I’ve listened to your words seen you stand by the caldron’s glare rendering grammar by the heat of your womanly wrath. Brave linguist, bearing your double axe and shield painfully honed and polished, no word lies cool on your tongue bent on restoring meaning to our lesbian names, in quiet fury weaving the chronicle so violently torn. On this beautiful, ever-changing land — the historical marker says — man fought to establish a home (fought whom? the marker is mute.) They named this Catherland, for Willa Cather, lesbian — the marker is mute, the marker white men set on a soil of broken treaties, Indian blood, women wiped out in childbirth, massacres — for Willa Cather, lesbian, whose letters were burnt in shame. Dear Julia, Willa knew at her death that the very air was changing that her Archbishop’s skies would hardly survive his life she knew as well that history is neither your script nor mine it is the pictograph from which the young must learn like Tom Outland, from people discredited or dead that it needs a telling as plain as the prairie, as the tale of a young girl or an old woman told by tongues that loved them And Willa who could not tell her own story as it was left us her stern and delicate respect for the lives she loved — How are we going to do better? for that’s the question that lies beyond our excavations, the question I ask of you and myself, when our maps diverge, when we miss signals, fail — And if I’ve written in passion, Live, Julia! what was I writing but my own pledge to myself where the love of women is rooted? And what was I invoking but the matrices we weave web upon web, delicate rafters flung in audacity to the prairie skies nets of telepathy contrived to outlast the iron road laid out in blood across the land they called virgin — nets, strands, a braid of hair a grandmother’s strong hands plaited straight down a grand-daughter’s back.


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