Blue October — Schizophrenia

[Verse 1] A silver-plated numbing gum And Jesus resting on my thumb A hard to reach Malaria I've got the mood that seems to scare ya And I'm paranoid, self-destroyed Believe me, Lord, I'm sorry I've got the mood that seems to bury ya I've got the nightmare called Schizophrenia [Chorus] I cry, I cry, and I don't know why The fever becomes my home I cry, I cry, and I don't know why The fever becomes my home Becomes my home [Verse 2] I love it when you're holding me You have a gentle way of calming I haven't felt that way since 1993 When my mother held me I bet you're waiting for a long sob story Of how I was mistreated again No, I wasn't built that way I was strong but desperately brave And I didn't mean to scare ya, Schizophrenia I cry, I cry, and I don't know why The fever becomes my home I cry, I cry, and I don't know why The fever becomes my home Becomes my home Becomes my home Becomes my home I cry, I cry, and I don't know why I cry, I cry, and I don't know why It becomes my home It becomes my home It becomes my home The fever becomes my home Becomes my home My home My home My home