Lil Wayne — Open Letter Demo

[Verse 1] Baby momma say I ain't shit Make a nigga feel like shit Talkin' 'bout some real life shit Goodbye letter, "Dear Life" shit So if a nigga kill me, hope he mean it I just hope I die for a reason They probably won't miss me 'till they need me Have problems with admittin' that they need me, Lord I'm talkin' 'bout some real life shit Goodbye letter, "Dear Life" shit Way too concerned to be conceited I live and I learn, then die tryna teach 'em, Lord Die tryna reach 'em They care more about how much I leave 'em Where'd I leave it? I hope I leave more of an impression And all of my blessings for my kids and Ms. Cita, Lord Just got off the phone with my son Told him, "You're a son of a gun" Just got off the phone with my daughter Told her, "I won't hesitate to fuck a young nigga up", Lord My new bitch left me She said she felt too disrespected It made no sense to me But not to the people closest to me And that's why she left My smile just left Can't lie though, I tried though I'll die tryin', that's a common death We was such a team, we was chasin' our dreams Then it stopped, now I'm outta breath Now they try to tell me I need rest And I’ll find love again, I ain't find it yet Oh, but I guess it is what it is As it appears, oh shit There go the tears, there go the drank There go the pills, you know the drill Sometimes I fear who in the mirror, that nigga weird He done died so many times but still here Why am I here? [Chorus] Dear Life What is my reason? What am I here for? That's the question Hmm, my children That was easy, so easy, uh [Verse 2] Loved ones say I don't love 'em Make a nigga feel like nothin' A bitch said we never make love Make a nigga feel like fuckin' I just tell my kids, "Nothing's easy" Even though I make it look easy But understand looks are deceiving Smokin' all this motherfuckin' weed 'Cause I been through way too much, don't wanna think about it Cranky 'bout it, gotta drink about it Gotta synchronize it, tranquilize it Doctor ain't prescribin' what he ain't realizin' Pain inside me got me thinkin' 'bout me Tryna hang my body, sanctifyin' I'm a gangsta dyin' 'cause all gangsters die I can't deny it, you can't tame a lion I'm a angry lion hangin' by a string I can't describe it Feel like a anchor tied to my finger Got me sinkin' to the bottom of my drink I know a lotta niggas think I got a lotta niggas There's strength in numbers but there's honor over strength I talked to God the other day, he say he got a nigga So, I look death up in her eye and then I wink It's way too real The shit I'm talkin' way, way too real I hope it gave you chills The dirt under your feet could be the grave you fill You don't know how dead you feel 'til you're dead for real And I'm higher than a cable bill, lower than a Navy SEAL Show up with them Navy guns I hope somebody prayin' for 'em Price tag, no mistakes, somebody payin' for 'em Ice bath when my face numb, no expression What's the life expectancy when you don't expect shit? Mama told me, "Fuck the world and be so aggressive Be so fluorescent, watch these hoes 'cause they so obsessive I don't get too high to look over blessings Never come in second, make the most of your seconds They so precious" 'Cause if we could buy time, every store would sell it And I never leave my grind, that bitch so magnetic I keep it real, niggas better keep it copacetic Where the weed? I feel like I'm gettin' a sober headache Lookin' in the mirror at the one that know me better I was too busy to talk, I wrote an open letter [Chorus] Dear Life What is my meaning? My reason? That's the question Hmm, my children That was easy, so easy Yeah