Stare at the monster: remark
How difficult it is to define just what
Amounts to monstrosity in that
Very ordinary appearance. Neither thin nor fat,
Hair between light and dark,
And the general air
Of an apprentice--- say, an apprentice house-
Painter amid an assembly of famous
Architects: the demeanour is of mouse,
Yet is he monster.
First scrutinize those eyes
For the spark, the effulgence, nothing. Nothing there
But the haggard stony exhaustion of a near-
Finished variety artist. He slumps in his chair
Like a badly hurt man, half life-size.
It is his dreg-boozed inner demon
Still tankarding from tissue and follicle
The vital fire, the spirit electrical
That puts the gloss on the normal hearty male?
Or is it women?
The truth---bring it on
With black drapery, drums and funeral thread
Like a great man's coffin --- no, no, he is not dead
But in this truth surely half-buried:
Once, the humiliation
Of youth and obscurity,
The autoclave of heady ambition trapped,
The fermenting of the yeasty heart stopped-
Burst with such pyrotechnics the dull world gaped
And “Repeat that!” still they cry.
But all his efforts to concoct
The old heroic bang from their money and praise
From the parent’s pointing finger and the child’s amaze,
Even from the burning of his wreathed bays,
Have left him wrecked: wrecked,
And monstrous, so,
As a Stegosaurus, a lumbering obsolete
Arsenal of gigantic horn and plate
From a time when half the world still burned, set
To blink behind bars at the zoo.
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